Not Only Your Hand

There has been much moving in our home and in my heart this week and my heart has been under heavy conviction as God has kindly exposed strongholds in my heart and life. I was reading back today over some old journal entries and came across this one. I was so thankful for the Holy Spirits leading, I needed to sit here a while, again.

November 2008

I was listening to the radio today and "Audience of One" just caught me. I just stopped. Frozen. Convicted. The artist effortlessly sang, "seeking your face and not only your hand." Immediately all I could think of was how often I go to seek God's hand and completely pass by His face. How often is it that I go before Him pleading for His will and His direction without stopping, awestruck, silenced by who He is? I go before Him begging Him to reveal His will, searching for it like it is impossible to find, when all along it is right before my eyes. His will for me: to wholeheartedly seek His face. So often I am looking for His plan, rather than being all satisfied in His presence. Please hear my heart, I know God delights in His children seeking His will and direction for their lives but sometimes I think we get so caught up in seeking Him for the specifics instead of just sitting at His feet. I know this is true in my life.

Forgive me, Father, for my heart is selfish, give grace here Lord, may I hunger and thirst after who You are. May I seek Your face, Lord and from there find Your hand.

"One thing I have desired of the Lord, that will I seek: That I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the Lord and to inquire in His temple." Psalm 27:4